Am I a hot mess or what? One moment I'm all dreary and sad and the next BAM! hyper and caffeinated Nay. I get whiplash just thinking about my moods lately.
Usually I'm like this during the "dreaded monthly visit", but jeez, it's getting to be on the daily.
I have been so weird lately and not having my bearings for some time now. Who am I kidding? I have a feeling I've always been this way and just noticing it now.
I'm concentrated on a task.
Then...totally procrastinating or "SQUIRREL!"
Maybe this is what happens at about "that age"? You know what I'm talking about, right? THE CHANGE.
Um, why is it called that, by the way? Shouldn't it be called THE OH THANK GOODNESS IT'S OVER?
But then I think how much more of a mess and weirdo will I become when the real mood swings, hot flashes, and everything else starts? Oh Sweet Jesus! And how long is it going to take for THE CHANGE to, well...change me?
Who will I become?
Maybe it'll be for the better...
Who am I kidding? If this is how I am now, I feel terrible for my husband for what's to come.
See, when it's about "that time of the month" around these parts, I have to warn my husband that I am not responsible for what words, actions, and responses he gets during that period of time. I'm a blazing mess.
And now...it's not only happening when I'm on "it", it's happening all the time.
But the other day, my hubby said something that made me feel a little better...
I'm paraphrasing, but you'll get the idea:
Do you like me? I mean, I know you love me, but do you LIKE me still?
Are you sure? Because I'm a little off most of the time...
The way I see it, you are YOU when you're with me. No one else sees the real you except me. So I think to myself that I'm lucky that you feel comfortable to be weird and you around me. So, yes I like you. I love you 100% and Like 95% of the time. There's always going to be that 5% that you drive me crazy. That's normal. You probably don't like me 50% of the time. And that's okay...I know.
(quiet for a minute)
So, yes I'm moody.
Yes, I'm a tad bit crazy.
And, yup, I may have some OCD and Bipolar-ish tendencies.