Have some coffee...I need to apologize

 If we were having coffee today, I'd apologize. 
Not because I don't have coffee for you. 
Of course there's coffee. 
Duh:)

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I would sit across from you and probably place my hands over my face and start...
I'm sorry.
I'd apologize for not being a great blogger. 
I'd say sorry that I don't write like Living in Yellow or Absolute Mommy or Life of Bon or Diary of an Addict or Casey Leigh

I'd say sorry that I haven't been writing all that is inspirational and encouraging.
I'd apologize for not having words that 
get you through your day 
or make you laugh 
or make you think about life and its wonderment. 

I'd tell you I'm sorry for not writing on a timely basis and sometimes skipping days on here. 

I'd tell you that I wish I were a big time blogger that you want to visit everyday. But I'm not and may never be that blogger. 
I'm sorry that you don't get connected with my posts enough to leave comments everyday. 
And that's okay. I wouldn't either. 

Who wants to come everyday to a blog that is just mediocre? 
Who wants to read something that doesn't speak to you? 
I sure don't. 
And I understand...
I stop reading blogs that get boring to me. 
I stop reading blogs I don't relate to. 

I don't mind really. I don't know what to write about anymore. 
I don't want to write about my past and childhood anymore because it needs to stay there. 
In the past. 
I don't feel empowered lately in my own life, so I would feel like a hypocrite telling you how to empowered and inspired.
You know what I mean?

To my loveys who keep coming back-leaving comments every so often - to see if I'm back to my old self and reading because they know the writing is there...thanks. 
Really, thank you.
It's there- the words...
but the words I have aren't positive and inspirational or encouraging and empowering anymore. 
I can't put words into context anymore.
Like Megan said to me last night - I'm going through a metamorphosis and so is my blog. 
I don't know why really and it makes me sad. 

So I'm sorry. 
Deep down sorry. 

Hope you enjoyed the coffee. Thanks for the talk.  I needed that.
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Joining Alissa today for coffee.  Link up, k?


4 comments:

  1. You don't need to apologize and certainly shouldn't compare yourself to anyone. You r you and should b proud of it! You inspire so many of us even when we don't comment. Im sorry you r feeling down. Just know many of us love you and appreciate you taking the time to share your story and heart over and over and over again.

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  2. I don't think you should apologize at all. You weren't mean to blog like any of those others...and you blog whenever you want to....not when people want you to. you aren't obligated really. by the way, i just found your blog today! excited to be following along :) come say hi if you get a chance, i love making new blogging buddies!

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  3. Comparison is the thief of joy. Kristine is right. Don't compare. And don't apologize. You are about to go through a metamorphosis. And when you get to the other side with your writing you will fly like a butterfly. I love you and we all go down this road a time or two.
    Xoxoxo
    Megs

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  4. You don't need to be sorry for changing. Change is necessary, and it's inevitable. You have had a lot of change and upheval in your life for the past few years... that kind of stuff makes seeing the forest instead of the trees hard sometimes.

    And the words are still lovely, still full of meaning, and promise. They still make people feel something. I don't read any of those "big" bloggers anymore. Not a single one. They don't move me. What you do here, your real life, your feelings, your heart... they move me. Even when they aren't inspirational or empowering.

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Hey Lovey! You're commenting! You just made me happier than...well, me with a Chestnut Praline Latte. (Yes, now you know what to order for me if we ever go to Starbucks - lol)