ever do this?
I've been here before.
As a blogger, you get stuck. Stuck on what to write about - do you go all in, be brave, and just say it how it is? Do you just let the words fall where they may and hope those thoughts are read? Do you make everything nice and pretty, full of fluff, because no one wants a downer or boring post?
Or are you like me? Whatever comes out on this page will eventually happen even if you don't plan it. Some days will have this profound writing attached to it. Other days will just be the thoughts that float around in my head. Like today...
Today is good. So far. It's the first full week of the new year and, boy, have I been busy. I know, we're all busy. I hate that word: busy. I haven't been busier than you, just a lot to do lately. Next week, everything should die down a bit and I can get back to a normal routine. Routine...my love language.
Presence...I've focused so much on being all in it, to have presence - it's pretty exhausting. But they say it takes 21 days to break a habit/start a new one, so I am practicing and practicing this presence thing. I want to do all the things, but last year it was so hard for me to focus. I just want to take one step at a time instead of preaching it to others.
In other news...I'm trying not to stress over an answer that I'm waiting for. The answer that may or may not change a lot in my life. I'll let you know about it either way. Hopefully it will be good news. Pray for good news and what's right, please.
Silly thoughts...You know, I was a little saddened these last two days. Not because of anything terrible going on in my life. I was just being pathetic....about comments and stuff. After being away for so long from the blog, I wrote two posts and it was kinda like crickets around here. But I had to talk myself down to normal and remember that it's not the comments that make me write. It's the actual writing. This online kind of journal, this place that builds relationships...
Water...I've been trying to drink lots of water lately. Can I tell you what I don't like about this water thing? The having to run to the bathroom every hour. What is up with that?! I literally have been running to the bathroom because of the water. Nice visual, I know.
Elevate...I can't wait to buy tickets on January 15! The countdown has begun. I'm excited to see old friends, make new ones, learn learn learn. And this year, I'm going to remember to just relax and have a good time. Oh, and take lots of photos! And Laura might go!!! I'll finally be able to meet the chick I text all night and day!
No idea how to finish this post....are you still there?