On my mind lately - this might suck
Lately, I have been just living my life day by day. I'm not thinking about the future - maybe the weekend ahead pretty much - and it feels pretty good. I've noticed that if I live in the moment, I notice things. I also don't get as stressed when I'm being as present as possible. I'm not perfect. I have my moments of weakness. I start worrying about the next day and what it will bring, I can feel my inner frustration start to boil.
That's when I have to stop.
I'm the type of person that always has to worry about something. I'm the woman that has no patience a lot of the time. I get frustrated with people - not people I know, mind you. I get frustrated with people that I don't know.
Like the woman I was driving behind yesterday. The one that at every stoplight would brake like everyone else, but as soon as the light turned green wouldn't move. The one that had her head down so I knew she was on her phone. That's the kind of stuff that bugs.
Or how about having a doctor appointment at 9am, but the doc doesn't stroll in until 9:15am. Then you are asked to go in the room to see the doctor, but then you wait another 15 minutes for her to actually show up. When she finally does, she pokes and questions for a bit and not even 10 minutes later, the doc is done. Wouldn't it be nice if people actually were on time for their patients?
It's stuff like that which bothers me and makes it really hard to be in the moment. If you stay in that moment much longer, you may honk for the whole city to hear...or give the doc a piece of your mind. But, I don't. I'm nice. Most of the time...
It's when you are at your breaking point and you've had one of those days and the driver in front of you is just the last straw. I beeped at her after the fourth light, not a long beep - a short friendly one - and what happens?
I get flipped off.
She's lucky I wasn't trying to be in the moment right then and there.
But it happens. I live day by day, trying to think of the here and now, and just be happy.
Happy that I had a good doctor's appointment with no surprises. Happy I didn't whoop that woman's butt. :]