What's Stopping You? {Three Things Thursday}

A major goal this year is to engage this wonderful blogging community consistently. What better way than to link up with blog friends! 

Together, the three of us came up with Three Things Thursday.



 Just three things to talk or write about. Five seemed like too many and "one thing" was like we weren't even trying! So any three things that are on your mind. Any three pictures from Instagram. Three complaints about your day/week. Three of your favorite treats. Seriously. Any three things!  So write it. Publish it. Yell it from the mountain tops! 

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Use the #threethingsthursday, and let's start talking!
Absolute Mommy

Be brave enough to travel the unknown path, and learn what you are capable of. #wisom #affirmations #bravery / Insight <3:
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I don't know if you've noticed, but lately it's been really hard to come to this place...this space.  A long time ago, when I first started blogging, I was here every weekday.  It didn't matter what I wrote or how I wrote it, I just loved spending time here.  This blog was a huge extension of me.  To know me was to read this blog.  That changed.  I don't know why.  Maybe I ran out of things to say, to reveal, to relive...

But today, I'm not going to think about why I'm not here all the time.  I'm just going to pretend like I'm the girl that has never written a word on a blog before.  I'm going to tell you what I think stops us...oh who am I kidding? I'm going to tell you what stops me...from what?
Oh so much.

1.  Fear of what others will say or think of me. I know as women, we tend to have these insecurities that we're not enough.  Well, I struggle with the "not enough-ness" every day.  I have to convince myself every day that I can't hate me.  Once upon a time, the way I would tame the inner negativity was to uplift and encourage others.  I wrote posts that told you how awesome you were.  Posts that told my readers, my loveys, that it's a bad day, not a bad life.  I tried to brainwash you that you are enough, you are be-you-tiful.  There was no fear of what others thought.  All that mattered was that we were here for each other.  I don't know why I stopped writing those words.  I have no idea.  I have a feeling I need to get back to those types of posts because I need them.  I do.

2.  Fear that what I have to say isn't important.  With all those encouragement posts, I started to write about my childhood and then, eventually, my life.  I started to uncover truths that had been hidden for so long.  I started to share about my life now - my wonderful loving life that I have now.  I got support, so much support from my readers and strangers all over the internet.  I stopped, though.  Why?  Because I felt the story was over and no one wants to hear me talk about it all the time. I was wrong.  With my words, I've helped other survivors of child abuse.  With my words, I showed other women they weren't alone.  I let my negativity stop me.  So wrong to do this.

3.  Fear that no one will ever read these words.  I am not the most influential or popular blogger.  You know that, I know that.  At one point in my blogging life, I could care less if I was popular or not.  I had (have) a loyal following.  I have regular readers that actually care about what I wrote.  Strangers that became my blogging family...they read my words.  Well, they did until I stopped writing those words.  It sucks that I stopped myself from expressing myself.  See, I'm torn right now.  I have stuff to say and I know I have people who will read it.  That's not the problem...the problem is that I'm not ready to uncover and reveal and revisit those old stories and give up the new ones.

I'm telling you. I have some issues.  Writing issues.  Blogging issues.  So if you used to be a regular around here and still come by to see me...thanks.  Thanks for stopping by.  Thanks for believing in me - and knowing that I am my own worst enemy.

So it's not really "What's Stopping You?" that should be the title of this post, but rather...
"What is Stopping ME?"

'Til next time, my loveys!



1 comment:

  1. Reading your post felt like you were in my brain, woman! I've been dealing with the same issues and emotions. Hang in there! We can encourage each other <3

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Hey Lovey! You're commenting! You just made me happier than...well, me with a Chestnut Praline Latte. (Yes, now you know what to order for me if we ever go to Starbucks - lol)